Welcome to Motherhood.

^^ Yes! That's how I really feel about it.

(Whoever said this was great.....LIED!)

Okay. Okay.

I digress, it's really not that bad but it sure as hell has its moments!

Motherhood has been and still is a journey for me (can you believe I am only 2 years in? And only have one?) Kudos to the mommies with more. I salute you all.


I am going to be honest. I have no idea what the hell I am doing half the time. I just wing it! Sometimes it works for the both of us and sometimes I get the crappy end. But hey, I’ll take each situation as a lesson and move on. 

Terrible Two’s.

My son just turned two (don't let that smile fool you). 

I am going to openly say, "terrible two's" is an understatement.

He really have me questioning my parenting skills. I know I am just winging it but dang am I that bad at it? Where did I go wrong? Maybe I should ask myself, is this child really mine? I mean....I didn't do this to him right? (Just agree with me, it'll make me feel better :). 

I subconsciously blame all the misfit on his father. He's not here anyway so why not throw the blame on him. Hehehe. But in real life it doesn't help. He is all mine. That's my little monster. 

Opinions, Opinions, OPINIONS.

I know I am only 2 years in with one child but what I can't stand at times is every mother has an opinion on my situation. 

*Sigh* 

I know I am a single mother and "O.M.G it's the end of the world for me" *roll eyes* but I think I got this. He's still alive right? 

So...... Please tell me how many things I am doing wrong?.....

.....I am waiting

Just off the simple fact that I am a single mother. I wonder if they harass married mothers. Hmmph..I don't know. They probably do...I mean I wouldn't leave it up to the "know it all's" to not know it all right? I rather hear a similar story to my situation or anyone with kids than to someone that can only think outside the box.

But me being me, I suck it up and put a smile on my face. 

See...  =) 

Yeah, it's a virtual smile, couldn't muster up a real one =P. 

But besides all the miscommunications, I'll keep their advice on file. 

Sleepless to Paranoid.

When my son first came home.

I literally forgot what sleep was. Sleep you say? What the hell is that??? I don’t know. I was zombie zoned. Then sleepless nights gradually turned into paranoia. You know. When your child is actually asleep but you hear a phantom cry (in your most awkward setting, meaning taking a bath, eating, if you're lucky enough sex). 

And as they get older it just becomes worst. As in you hear a cry but really trying to figure out if it is real or not. 

Yeah, those come more often than they should.

Motherhood is not a job. It's a gift and a calling.

^^ I think a man came up with that/or a mother who is completely oblivious to the crazy/upside down side of motherhood.

Yeah, it's not a job, its freaking work. 

Work for the rest of our lives. 

A gift, because it was presented to us. 

Duh. 

And a calling?

Do you mean? Hearing mom, mom, and mom repeatedly in a matter of a minute?

Oh okay.

Motherhood is not a job. And I am pretty sure any mother would be offended by that. Being a mother is a lifetime commitment. It's something that when happens, I hate to say this term but,  you either go hard or go home. 

It's either/or. You do the work or you don’t (give it to someone else). 

No grey side. 

Adult Relationships

Ha! Don’t make me laugh! 

First few years it’s all about baby. And I mean the one you birthed. You know the one that brings out the very best yet the worst in you. The one that you didn’t really get too much information on besides gender and mental awareness. Yeah the little baby that comes out not speaking one word of the human language yet tells us everything we need to do.

Adult relationship? Where does that fit in? …. 

It doesn't. Its either for a little while, shit, maybe even longer. Someone is going to trump someone. And it’s usually the cute little one that can’t do anything for themselves. 

So here's your life in a nutshell....

Sacrifice

Heh, Sacrifice. 

That word alone is powerful. Powerful to the point of oblivion. No one wants to say it. But it’s there. Sacrifice knows when to come into play. It’s up to the actors to know its part. Selflessness is his cousin. They come hand in hand. If you haven’t met sacrifice and selflessness, it’s time to meet them. They’ll give you a painful yet awakening knowledge.

__________________

Don’t let those things scare you. It’s all good at the end of the night. No, literally at the end of the night when child is asleep and you get a little free time yourself. You then tend to reflect on the greater things of motherhood. 

Pride

Yes, that’s MY baby. Uh huh, he is the best person in the whole world. Yes, he trumps the guy who gave me him.

Joy

The simplest smile/littlest laughter/accomplishment will always bring joy to your heart. No matter what they do.

Blessings

They can either make or break you. Shit gets real with them!

Acknowledgment

Nothing feels and will ever feel better than your child calling you mommy. It will get played out real fast. But always remember it is a privilege that have and has been denied to many.

Appreciate it.

You only get one shot.